Recently, I saw a Facebook meme and I shared it immediately because it felt profound to me. But I shared that I didn't completely understand its message. And I have been pondering it ever since...
Two Cookie Monster Memories
I sat for a while, once again pondering this idea.
And two "cookie monster" memories came to mind. They both represent versions of me that I don't think about very often, probably subconsciously on purpose.
One happened when I was four, and I climbed up on the stove, to reach the cabinet above it, so I could grab the vanilla wafers. Then I hid behind the recliner in the family room and quickly ate most of the box.
Another is from last year. I was standing at the kitchen counter, eating vanilla Oreos. I had dumped them into a large freezer bag and counted them, figuring out how many I could have each day if I wanted to make them last a week. But I ate more than that.
I could feel some of the pain & sadness of each memory, and it made me want to hug, befriend and love on each version of myself.
So, I wondered, is my self-love the portal?
Healing the Healer
I decided to heal them both, using a ThetaHealing technique. I'm an Advanced ThetaHealing practitioner, in case you were wondering.
When I healed them, an interesting thing happened.
I could see both memories, and I watched as the little girl memory began to heal with golden light. I felt the shift as it healed, and then mentally turned to look at the other memory and it vanished as I watched.
And then I felt both new versions of the me from those memories integrate with me in the present moment.
Was healing the memories the portal?
Two A-ha Moments
I read about an experiment in a book by Lynne McTaggart that I still believe is kind of revolutionary, though no one I tell this to reacts with the intensity I expect.
Around 2000, a group of people were asked to pray for a group of patients in a hospital. The goal was for them to heal more quickly, get better results after surgery, etc. And there was a control group that did not get prayed for during the experiment.
This was a blind experiment, or whatever you would call it. When the researchers composed each group of patients, they didn't know anything about their stories, though they probably knew their medical conditions.
Well, it turns out the group of patients who were prayed for did have the desired results and they were significantly better than the control group.
But here's the part you're not expecting. The patients being prayed for and not being prayed were hospitalized in the 90s. Read that again. Surprise!
So there were several versions of this kind of experiment and the quietly whispered conclusion was that you can change the past.
I mean, I'm not sure that idea made it into the official conclusions. Maybe not. But awareness of the possibility has sprung to life nonetheless.
And I believe that that is what happened during my experience. I have never seen that happen before! And I have been a healer for 23 years.
What are my a-ha revelations?
(1) That I changed the past when I healed the rest of the pain of that memory of me at 4. It was as if the memory from last year didn't happen.
I had thrown healing at it before, so the pain had lessened considerably, but not fully, until the day I am referring to, when I healed it again.
(2) Both the self-love and the healing experiences are portals. They both changed the "me" I remembered.
But What Will the Next Level Be Like?
Well, I still don't know the answer to that question. I feel different, that is for sure. But I wrote this post yesterday, the same day I did the healing, so it will take time to notice the features of this next level.
I already feel different but I expect to become more aware of what has changed as I continue to live into it.
Over to you! Did reading this post lead to any a-has for you? Do you feel inspired to reach for your own next level?
See you tomorrow!